Did it ever happen to you to get attached to someone so much that you let them become your whole world without even knowing it? You gave them your heart and soul and they just became a huge part of who you are today. There is nothing you wouldn’t have done for them because you just cared so much, always wanted them to be happy.
Seeing a smile on their face was your main priority. You wanted them to succeed in life and follow their dreams as much as you wanted yourself to be successful. You enjoyed their presence in your life because they always made your days a little brighter. Whenever something amazing would’ve happened, they’d be the first person you wanted to tell the great news to. You made a home out of them because whenever you were together, you felt comfort, even miles away from where you live. You just felt like you could finally be yourself and live freely because they’ve accepted you the way you were.
Hearing their laugh and feeling their touch would just give you energy. All you wanted was to dance with them to the sound of beautiful music. You wanted to travel the world with them, go on adventures and share meaningful moments together. They taught you how to enjoy yourself and just appreciate the little things in life. You were lowkey dreaming of living happily ever after with them like they always do in Disney movies. Haha! How innocent could you possibly be?
Within the blink of an eye, they were no longer with you anymore and the past years you’ve spent just felt like they were a dream. Your chest felt heavy for a while and your eyes were swollen from the river you cried. You got to wake up every morning and had to act like nothing ever happened. Like you never felt anything for them because it would hurt so much to think about all the perfect memories you made together. You felt like it was the end of the world and they left sticking a knife in your heart.
You built up a wall to block your emotions and move on with your life because you needed to protect yourself. You stayed strong because you respect yourself enough to accept the situation as it is. You know your worth and you know theirs. You know that even if that person walked out of your life, you still wish them the best because they made you happy at a certain time and you are grateful that you got the chance to live a chapter of your life with them. You still respect them as much as you used to because you just get it. You spend some time every day thinking about how they feel now that you’re gone, but you just ignore the thought of it. You prefer telling yourself that if some things are meant to be, they will find their way back.
And then, one day, without even noticing it, your chest felt lighter and the knife that was stuck in your heart disappeared adding another scar to your collection. Now you wear that scar like a badge of honor, one of many. You get used to their absence and you just feel free again. Free from all the agony you went through. You’re able to smile again, laugh again and you’re ready take on your journey. You spend more time on your own and you get to know yourself better. You get to become whoever you want to be and you start making decisions that you and only you will benefit from. You start meeting new people, you grow your circle of friends and you do things you would never have done before. You realize that you are too young to let things hurt you the way they did and you have so many years in front of you that you can’t miss out on by living in the past. Finally, you turned the page and it's now time to write the next chapter. It’s you versus the world again.
“Your peace is more important than driving yourself crazy trying to understand why something happened the way it did. Let it go.”
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